February 25, 2011

WITHOUT YOU

As I logged onto my messenger, I realised Aiden was online. I didn't know what to do, whether I should be acknowledging or ignoring him. What happened between Aiden and I just now was something new, it gave me this new feeling inside, and it wasn't a good one. As I was about to log out, something caught my attention. Aiden just updated.

"It's sad to see that two close people don't even recognise each other anymore, not because they grew up, but because they grew apart." And with those words, I knew he was talking about me and him. Those words looked like normal words but they weren't just 'normal words', words that spoke the blatant truth. As I gazed at those words, a great pain welled up in me and let the tears stream down my ashen pale cheeks. But to be honest, no words could describe how I was feeling at that time. I shut down the computer and lay down on my bed, covering my body with the blanket as I cried silently to myself, closing my eyes, listening to the beautiful voice of the night I call silence. I didn't remember anything after that. I didn't want to anyway.

The next day at school, everything was the same. Who was I kidding? It was everything but 'the same'. I opened my locker and took out the required books for the day as I debated with myself whether I had to seat beside him in homeroom or not. I really hated the fact that I was right before Aiden in the list at that moment. Stupid surnames. However, my train of thoughts were put to a halt as I heard a familiar voice across the room. Kaylee. There he stood, not far from her, his arms crossed as he spoke to Kaylee intently; his chocolate hair mussed up, covering half of his eyes. He had the nerve to talk to my currently only best friend. Jack-ass. I just rolled my eyes and walked towards homeroom.

"Hey." I rushed over to Kaylee as I stepped out of homeroom. Homeroom was alright, I guess. Just me and Aiden ignoring each other.

"Oh, Mia." I could hear a slight annoyance in her tone as she shrugged and continued walking. What was with her? She was walking so quickly as if she was avoiding someone. As I caught up with her, I grab her arm and pulled her in slightly.

"You alright? You're avoiding something, I can tell."

"Whatever Mia, the thing is I cannot believe you would ditch Aiden just because of that asshole. You broke your ten-year friendship with Aiden for such an unforgivable reason, Mia." Kaylee blurted out, her shoulders drooped as she sighed.

"Oh, so he complained? He's just being a sensitive idiot. It was just one project Kay, just one. I've done like a million and one projects with him. I wanted a change. Plus, didn't hear you saying that about Hayden the last time. And you're supposed to be on my side, not his."

"Whatsoever. I don't care Mia. Let's stop talking, I don't follow friends, I follow what I feel is right. Now get a grip and move on. I'm done talking to you." Kaylee replied malevolently. I definitely loathed her right now; she didn't have to be so bitter about it. She could go rot and go to hell for all I care; I couldn't believe she would rather listen to Aiden than me. I was clearly at the apex of anger.

As I opened my locker to put in my file, a slip of paper flew out and perfectly landed on the floor, facing up; allowing me to read the content: 
 
Sorry I forgot to tell you, that as a friend you should be true.

I picked up the paper, ripped it into pieces, threw it into the wastebasket and left without a second glance.



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